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I told you this morning about my plans for the future. I remember the warm sun on my skin and my hair tied back in a loose bun as the dog sunbaked along with us, enjoying the morning but now I'm sitting in my blacken room, cold and isolated once again.
We talked about what we wanted to do and where we wanted to go and I loved it until I said I wanted to stand up for something that I am. You beat me down with your words that slipped like ice daggers into my heart, twisting once again.
I told you I wanted to try and show people that I am not wrong, not something to hate and not something that should be kept quiet but still, you told me to think about everyone else and to shut up for I had no experiences in the matter.
I asked you quiet plainly and simple, as if talking to a child of only 4 years, if it would be best to go and get myself hurt, bashed, shunned and hated like I already am and you just spat back that would never wish the sort so why did you tell me to shut up and lock myself away? Why did you tell me to keep in the closet?
Shouldn't I be breaking out of it? Shouldn't I be proud? Shouldn't I be happy for this is who I am? I like this, I like being this and I want other people to like me for being strong enough to love myself. I can't change this; nobody can so why must I keep quiet, as if it was some deadly and fatal sickness that is going to jump from one human to the next, infecting them and making them just like me.
Do I need to break away from this family, just to be who I am? Should I change my last name because you're so worried that I shall bring hatred and distaste to the family? You are trying to muzzle me, keep me quiet, silent once more just to protect yourself and you, say for me too.
I don't want to be protected and I don't want to be muzzled like some rabid wild dog that yanks on the chain of his master, ready to rip into the next thing that land in its grasp. I'm not evil. I'm not wrong. I'm not crazy. I am not what you want me to be.
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How Did I Ever Let You Go?
Dear Long Lost Friend,
I know you're not real; I know you don't breathe, but to me you're alive in every way possible.
Wherever you are, near or far, I miss you dearly; I truly do.
I know not what has happened, but I know you're not gone; you haven't left me forever.
I'm in despair for I've forgotten, there's a world somewhere where I used to be loved.
A world you used to show me, full of castles and dragons, towers and maidens; space rangers and starships; pirates and vast seas.
I really miss you; I truly do. I would never lie to you because you'd never lie to me, so this is why I must write this.
You taught me pain, happiness, empath
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Being Gay Is A Choice
I chose this way of life.
I chose to be ostracized by the general public.
I chose to live in a way,
My parents want to kill me for,
And my family wants to disown me.
I chose this way,
Where no matter how good I am,
How caring or faithful,
My place of worship,
Says I'll rot in hell.
I chose to put up with,
All of the heckling,
Fag, Homo, Queer.
Yup, I chose that all.
I chose a way,
Where in most places,
I can't marry someone,
I love with all my heart.
I chose to live my life,
So that if I want to bring in a child,
The world will scorn me,
And deny me a family of my own.
I chose to be treated as sub-human,
By the majori
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tell me this isn't love
try and tell me
this isn't love
getting butterflies
just from a new note
wanting to have her next to me
every damn day
wishing on 11:11 and shooting stars
to be with her
seeing her every night
in my dreams
finally able to be
holding her, kissing her, loving her...
go ahead push me down
and keep telling me it isn't love
because i'm ready
to prove you wrong
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I told mum that I wanted to stand up for the LGBTQ commuinty and she told me, " I wouldnt do that. Think about your brothers and if they were to get bashed adn think about the people around us, what they would do to us and besides, you have no experiance in the matter. "
I asked her, " So if i was to go out, get bashed and beaten, possibly killed, move out of house to another area and change my last name you would be happy? "
After her spitting back a no, i basicly just got up and walked away. This freaking killed me. Its basicly just telling me to shut up and go back to the closet. I dont want to do that.
I asked her, " So if i was to go out, get bashed and beaten, possibly killed, move out of house to another area and change my last name you would be happy? "
After her spitting back a no, i basicly just got up and walked away. This freaking killed me. Its basicly just telling me to shut up and go back to the closet. I dont want to do that.
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Yeah, my mom said I didn't know anything about love, or being bi. She said I can't tell at my age, but I know I can. She was pretty angry that I was in the LGBT group, and she bashes gays and bi people in front of my face. I'm kinda afraid to tell her I might even be gay.